We all have skeletons in our closet. We've all had things that we've done that we're ashamed of admitting for one reason or another. The last couple days, I've had to come to terms with the things that I have done, and it's been hard for me. I know many of you who read this won't understand what I'm talking about, but I promised someone that I'd make up for what I've done, and it would be from the heart.

Well here goes.

For the sake of privacy, I can't name names. This ordeal isn't about them, it's about me.

I am not a very good person. I've betrayed someone's trust, and the only thing that person has ever done to me was be honest with me and love me unconditionally, and I betrayed them. I told them that things were fine, when they weren't. I led them to believe that I was true to them, that I was being honest and forthcoming like I said I was, and I wasn't. I never was.

You were the source of all my inspiration. Every thought, every new and interesting idea I had was because of you. You were my Muse. Everything I had was because of you.

There are no words that can even begin to express the remorse I feel over what I did to that person.

I know I don't deserve forgiveness to the things I did to you. I know I deserve every harsh word that you'd spoken my way, and I deserve even more.

How could I ever begin to make it up to you? How could I ever begin to repair the damage that I had done to you? How could I ever lay my sins bare before you and plead for your forgiveness? How can the tears I have shed and the anguish in my chest even begin to fill the hole that I made in you?

They cant... Not truly... Nothing I do or say can mean much anymore after what happened.

Know that from the depths of my soul, I am so sorry over everything I have put your through the last few years.

And I know this may come too little too late... But I stand here before you... Before you and everyone who may read this. That I am sorry from the depths of my being.

And I will do whatever I can to make things right. I swear before God.

I am so so very sorry.

So very very sorry...